Marian Seldes observed that one of the great problems of being an actor was accepting, or coming to terms with the inevitable rejection in auditioning for roles each year. Along with artistic capacity -- we can add to the list of necessary attributes for a performer some means for handling disappointment. It's curious balance. We seek persons of delicate sensitivity and perception; they also need to withstand the turbulence of other … [Read more...]
Unhinged
C. P. E. Bach writes in his treatise: "A musician cannot move others unless he too is moved. He must of necessity feel all of the affects that he hopes to arouse in his audience, for the revealing of his own humor will stimulate a like humor in the listener. In languishing, sad passages, the performer must languish and grow sad. Thus will the expression of the piece be more clearly perceived by the listeners...." It's an old and ongoing … [Read more...]
Preparedness
A part of preparing to perform music is a psychic readying -- we need to be prepared to accept very fine results. Perhaps this seems strange, since so much practicing of classical music focuses on avoiding mistakes? Our practice can prepare us to receive. Any sense that we don't deserve or are not entitled to extraordinary music making can impede it. Especially if time is short or preparation is scant, we may play less well than possible … [Read more...]
Product and Act
Let's not make a categorical distinction between 19th-century musical products -- publications for sale to a public of amateur players -- and the recorded musical products of the 20th and 21st centuries. The work of the "composer" notating sonatas for sale to ladies of the bourgeoisie is the same work as that of performers and producers of 20th-century sound recordings. Both endeavors are musicking, both bring a public into the process/experience … [Read more...]
How many?
In an interview recently, I was asked the obvious question: "How many concerts have you played?" And I answered truthfully: "I don't know." I've thought about it before, even wishing I had kept track better. I might calculate the number by studying my old calendars and printed programs. (Could I have notched the leg of a piano bench?) It's got to be hundreds. As I was speculating about this, I asked another question: "For the purpose of this … [Read more...]
Concert Accident
New York The Stone, last summer After the performance, I notice one of the screws that holds my glasses together is missing. Glasses still hanging together. During the hour-long set, somehow, tiny screw worked loose, jumped, disappeared. Metropolitan Museum Leaving to go across town, I lock myself out of apartment. No time. Must proceed to Grace Rainey Rogers and play recital. Miller Theatre Coming home after playing, I leave my … [Read more...]