On Friday night I returned to Manhattan, where the trees are bare, the air is crisp, and I take cabs instead of driving my own (rented) car. I’ve been elsewhere–mostly in Florida–for much of the past three months, and I hit the road mere days after moving to a new apartment in a new neighborhood. Because of all this, the sense of strangeness that I always feel on returning to New York has been heightened even further. You’d almost think I was still on the wing: I haven’t had time to hang any of the pieces in the Teachout Museum, and unopened cardboard boxes are piled high in every room.
Fortunately, all of our books and compact discs are shelved, which makes the place feel somewhat more like home. But it isn’t, not yet, and it won’t be for some time to come, not until we open a few more boxes and buy quite a bit more furniture (we moved from a tiny one-bedroom pied-à-terre to a much larger two-bedroom apartment).
It doesn’t help that Mrs. T is in Los Angeles, visiting friends and family and waiting for the last traces of winter to vanish before coming back to New York, which has been far too cold for her of late. I’m more of a winter person, but I, too, have lost my taste for gray skies and dirty snow, and I found it downright painful to lock the door of our borrowed Florida condo for the last time and head for the airport.
What did help–after a fashion–was that the trip that followed was perfectly frightful. It took nine hours from portal to portal, and I spent four of them sitting in an Orlando departure lounge, growing grumpier by the minute. By the time I finally got home, I was so relieved to be there that I was more than willing to overlook the fact that I’d left the warmth of central Florida far behind me. Come Saturday there was plenty of sunshine to distract me, and by Sunday I was starting to feel as though I might possibly be able to put up with Manhattan again.
That remains to be seen…or, rather, it doesn’t. I really do live here, after all, and I’ll be back on the aisle come Tuesday night, seeing Arcadia on Broadway with a new friend. For better or worse, I’ve returned to what is, at least for the moment, my natural element. Above all, I won’t be catching any more planes until the end of April, for which I’m profoundly, even abjectly grateful. “Human life is everywhere a state in which much is to be endured, and little to be enjoyed,” Dr. Johnson assured us in Rasselas. That stoic sentence occurred to me more than once as I made my slow, bumpy, crowded, thoroughly disagreeable way north to Manhattan, the place where I work and live and where I’ve spent the past quarter-century doing my best to feel at home.
Terry Teachout on the arts in New York City
