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”A man who tells me my play is very bad, is less my enemy than he who lets it die in silence. A man, whose business it is to be talked of, is much helped by being attacked.”

Samuel Johnson (quoted in James Boswell, Journal of a Tour to the Hebrides

I’m still knocked out from the protracted siege of work that led to the premiere of The Letter in Santa Fe last Saturday. I’ve been doing my best to get some rest, but the aftermath of an opening night can be almost exhausting as the prelude to it. I’ve been inundated with calls and e-mail from friends and colleagues, and I also have a couple of looming deadlines that are keeping me from basking in the echoes of last week’s applause. Mrs. T and I are going to a concert of Paul Moravec’s chamber music tonight, and we’ll be seeing the second performance of The Letter on Wednesday. My guess is that both occasions will be enormously gratifying–not least because I won’t have anything to do but sit and listen.
Needless to say, not everybody liked The Letter as much as the first-nighters who cheered us to the echo. My old colleagues at the Washington Post, for instance, published a scorched-earth pan on Monday, the thrust of which was that Paul and I should take up another line of work. I can’t say I enjoyed reading it, but I believe I can stand the heat. I ought to be able to: after all, I’ve been dishing it out for most of my professional life! Gian Carlo Menotti, a hugely successful opera composer who got more than his share of bad reviews, claimed to be dismissive of critics. “They often spoil my breakfast but never my lunch,” he said. For my part, I’m old enough by now to be reasonably sure of myself, and I plan to have a good lunch today.
Meanwhile, life goes on: I have to finish writing a Commentary essay on Alan Ayckbourn, a task that would be more pleasant if I weren’t so tired but from which I wouldn’t dream of shirking. So excuse me while I get back to work. Writing opera libretti is great fun, but it doesn’t pay the bills.
UPDATE: I just finished the Ayckbourn essay and sent it off. Twenty-eight hundred words, thank you very much! Shall I take a nap now? Or perhaps I should get going on another libretto….

“A newspaper that wishes to make its fortune should never waste its columns and weary its readers by praising anything.”
Anthony Trollope, The Way We Live Now

I’m all in. See you tomorrow. Or Tuesday.

“The applause of a single human being is of great consequence.”
Samuel Johnson (quoted in James Boswell, Life of Johnson)

A minute or two before the house lights went down and the world premiere of The Letter got underway, Paul Moravec tapped me on the shoulder. “Turn around and look,” he said. I was sitting in an aisle seat toward the front of the left side of the theater. I turned around and saw that all two thousand of the seats in the Santa Fe Opera’s Crosby Theatre were full. Paul grinned. “Did you ever think you’d see anything like that?” he said. Mrs. T snapped a picture of the two uf us. Then we sat back down to watch the show.

The first public performance of The Letter went even more smoothly than the last dress rehearsal. I know this because I watched it like a hawk. I was holding my wife’s hand from beginning to end, but she told me later that I never took my eyes off the stage. “It felt like you weren’t there at all,” she said. My ears registered the sound of laughter in unexpected and gratifying places, a sure sign that the audience was on top of the plot. Yet I couldn’t spare a glance for anyone around me, not even Hilary. All I wanted to see was the performance itself. I didn’t feel nervous–it was as though I were watching a show that someone else had written. Once or twice Paul reached back from the aisle seat in front of me and tapped me on the leg as if to say It works! Otherwise I was completely caught up in the action on stage.

Ninety-five minutes after Pat Racette fired the six pistol shots that set The Letter in motion, the orchestra blasted out a climactic E-minor chord and the stage went black. A fraction of a second later, the audience burst into loud applause. I looked at my wife for the first time and kissed her. My brother and sister-in-law, who were seated to her left, said something I couldn’t quite hear. Then I saw Paul getting to his feet. The two of us had been told before the show to head for the stage door as soon as the performance was over, so I gave Hilary’s hand a squeeze, stood up, and started backstage. Just before I got to the door, I ran into Brad Woolbright, the Santa Fe Opera’s artistic administrator, a man who under ordinary circumstances is almost alarmingly cool and self-contained. His face was lit up like a Christmas tree. “They like it! It’s a hit!” he said, then hugged me.

By the time I reached the wings, the entire production team was assembled and the curtain calls were underway. The sound of the audience out front was strangely muted. “Hey, Sullivan!” I said to Paul, clasping his arm.

“Hey, Gilbert!” he said to me, looking as though he’d won two lotteries in a single day.

I saw Jonathan Kent, the director, standing behind Paul. “What do we do now, Jonathan?” I shouted. He laughed. The stage manager told us that Jonathan, Hildegard Bechtler, Tom Ford, and Duane Schuler should line up and get ready to take a group curtain call, after which Paul and I would go on stage. I heard a surge of applause, glanced at the backstage TV monitor, and saw that Pat Racette was taking her bow. Patrick Summers, the conductor, followed her. Next came the production team. Paul and I stood in the wings, waiting for a signal from the assistant stage manager, who held her hand in the air to keep us from moving prematurely. After an agonizingly long pause, she dropped her hand. “O.K., composer, this is it,” I said to Paul, and we made our entrance.

Once I got on stage, I looked to my left and saw the cast lined up, their faces glowing. I hugged Mika Shigematsu and Paul hugged Pat, whose hands I clasped tightly. I was about to start embracing the other cast members when I realized that the audience was still applauding. My God, I’ve got to take a bow right now! I thought, and stepped to center stage, standing to Paul’s left. I looked out at the audience and saw nothing but a bottomless pit of blackness. The stage lights were so bright that I couldn’t see beyond the edge of the orchestra pit. I knew that the audience was clapping, but I felt as though I were hearing them from under water. I sensed that Paul was bowing, so I did the same thing, bending almost double at the waist. Was that bow deep enough? I asked myself. Did it look all right?

Paul and I bowed a second time. People in costumes surged up behind me and I heard a voice in the distance shout “Group call!” I put my right arm around Paul and my left arm around Patrick Summers. The entire cast and production team stepped forward and took two bows together, looking like a mismatched chorus line. Then the stage lights started to dim and we made our exit.

The next few minutes are an impenetrable blur in my memory. All I know for sure is that Charles MacKay, the general director of the Santa Fe Opera, hugged me two or three times, and that Paul and I kept looking at one another as though we’d awakened from a dream. Suddenly the wings filled up with people, and I pulled myself together and started greeting friends, family members, company members, and excited strangers. Somebody shouted “Hilary’s here!” and I saw my wife, looking the same way she did on the day we got married. I took her in my arms, then glanced past her and saw my brother and sister-in-law. “That was cool!” Kathy said. Dave, my normally poker-faced brother, was smiling broadly beneath his neatly trimmed mustache.

“Did they like it?” I asked my wife.

“Are you kidding?” she asked. “They were shouting! They were shrieking! I called your mother and held up the cellphone so that she could hear the cheers.”

“I couldn’t really tell back here,” I said. “I knew they were clapping, but I couldn’t hear how loud it was. Was my bow all right?”

“It was perfect,” she said.

“Did I look all right next to Tom Ford?”

“I didn’t even notice him,” she said.

At length the backstage crowd started to thin out. Paul came up to me. “I guess we’d better head for the cast party,” he said. His face was flushed. “You da man!” he added.

“You da man!” I replied.

We passed through the stage door, and I saw with amazement that it was raining outside. Fifteen or twenty minutes later, Mrs. T and I arrived at the party. Joyce Idema, the head of the press department, greeted us at the door. “Are you happy?” she asked.

“I think so,” I said. “I’m kind of stunned.”

“The energy here is amazing,” Joyce said. “Can you hear it out on the terrace? Everybody here is happy.”

The terrace was jammed, and no sooner did Hilary and I make our entrance than dozens of people came up to tell us how wonderfully things had gone. Someone pressed a glass of champagne into my hand and said that we’d gotten a standing ovation. “That never happens at Santa Fe premieres,” he added. “This is the first time a new opera has ever gotten that kind of response.”

“I didn’t know that,” I said. “I couldn’t see anything from the stage.” All at once I felt unsteady on my feet.

Hilary and I spent the next hour or so exchanging hugs and congratulations with everyone in sight. Two phrases were repeated again and again: This show has legs. This show is going to travel. I thanked everyone as graciously as I could, but I was in a daze. I still felt as though I’d spent the whole evening watching a show written by somebody else.

“My back hurts,” I said to Hilary. “Why does my back hurt?”

“Because of all the stress,” she said.

“But I wasn’t nervous,” I said. “Why should my back be hurting now?”

She laughed. “You can take a couple of Aleve when we get home,” she replied. “Do you want something from the buffet? Something sweet? Are you ready to go?”

“I think so,” I said. “I feel like I’m about to fall down.” We started making our slow way through the crowd, and a little while later we were on the way back to our rented condo. I drove very, very slowly, like a drunk who was afraid of running off the road, even though the only thing I’d had to drink was a few mouthfuls of champagne.

“See how carefully I’m driving?” I said to Mrs. T as I pulled into our parking space.

“I saw,” she said gently. “I think it’s about time you went to bed.”

“Is success in any other profession as dazzling, as deeply satisfying, as it is in the theatre? I cannot pretend to know, but I doubt it. There are other professions where the rewards are as great or greater than those the theatre offers, there are professions where the fruits of success are as immediate, and still others where the pursuit of a more admirable goal undoubtedly brings a nobler sense of fulfillment. But I wonder if success in any of them tastes as sweet. Again, I am inclined to doubt it. There is an intensity, an extravagance, an abundant and unequivocal gratification to the vanity and the ego that can be satisfied more richly and more fully by success in the theatre than in any other calling. Like everything else about the theatre, its success is emphatic and immoderate. Perhaps what makes it so marvelously satisfying is that it is a success that is anything but lonely–everyone seems to share in it, friends and strangers alike–and a first success in the theatre is the most intoxicating and beguiling time imaginable. No success afterward surpasses it.”
Moss Hart, Act One

• Deborah Baker of the Associated Press recently interviewed Paul Moravec and me about The Letter:

Gunshots. A dead lover. A cigarette-puffing leading lady whose neck could end up in a noose. Welcome to “opera noir.”
The Santa Fe Opera’s latest original offering, “The Letter,” is classic opera mayhem in a compact, stylish package….

To read the story, go here.
• Mary Charlotte, the host of Santa Fe Radio Café, which airs every Friday on KSFR-FM, Santa Fe’s public radio station, interviewed Paul and me about The Letter just before Thursday’s final dress rehearsal. To listen to her program in streaming audio or download it as a podcast, go here.
• To read the Santa Fe New Mexican‘s interview with Patricia Racette, star of The Letter, go here.
• To read the Santa Fe New Mexican‘s interview with Tom Ford, costume designer of The Letter, go here.
• An old friend writes:

The all-time best wish for a First Night was Noël Coward’s telegram to Gertrude Lawrence–“May you have a warm hand at your opening”–but it doesn’t quite work in this case. So let me just wish you all success and sane and smart reviews.

Sounds good to me.
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In a few minutes I’ll dress and depart for the theater where The Letter is about to be performed for the first time. My heartfelt thanks to all who’ve sent messages of encouragement in the past few hours. We are full of hope!
And now, here goes nothing….